I am about to dump a whole lot of information from my head. My heart is in a mode of preparation and I am pretty sure that I have wrecked myself-- looking for eternal things and outweighing those troubles. So the following may include incomplete sentences, incomplete thoughts, some light stuff, some heavy stuff...
You have been warned.
I -- notice a capital i--made a decision to pursue a position working in Tulsa two days a week this summer. Voluntary work while I finish my degree. The Lord shut that door. I am glad. It has been very difficult to consider a career change. In Dec. 2013, I will (most likely) graduate with my Master's in counseling and will be able to pursue my LPC license. I will not be going back to teaching in the public school system. Hard words for someone who has taught 11 years. My plans as of now are in the Lord's hands and he hasn't shown me the full picture. So in this time of recovery, I am in a state of preparation. I happened up on a book by Jen Hatmaker called 7. I will be cutting out excess over the next few months. It will begin with clothes. Jen totally wore only 7 clothes. I will be cutting out most of my wardrobe in order to focus more on simpler things, less pride and more God.
I am going to be studying Ephesians. Not sure what to expect. I ask that the Lord speak to me and my family through this time of transition.
Also, I have been having massive pain in my stomach. This is likely a side effect of bulimia. Possibly an ulcer- who knows? I am in process of cutting out wheat to see if that might be a solution. I am terrified that cutting coffee might be the cure. I am sure the Lord will speak to that in the coming months.
Money. We have some. We have more than we need. We spend it. We need to spend less, save more, give more, pay off more. Dave Ramsey might need to be my friend. My husband will faint when he hears this. Again...I am sure this will be dealt with in the coming months as well.
The road ahead is unclear. I am keeping on the path.
